His last walk...

As I write this...my heart is sad...sigh... My two year old has climbed into my lap and is consoling me as I boohoo. Zeke, our 14 1/2 year old lab, is going to be put to sleep today. We have known for a while...it was time. He can hardly get up without help, has lost even more weight, is going potty inside all the time, he is in pain and has no quality of life at all, and is just all around pitiful. With a cold winter coming...we cannot stand to think of him and his poor little joints going through it and not suffering tremendously. It comes at a time in our lives that has been so filled with sadness and joy. Carlyle's grandpa passed away about 10 weeks ago...my grandad was two weeks after...and now Zeke. And in the midst of this sadness...we welcomed our sweet Lucas into this world! My 9# 23 inch long water birth baby. Having him at home this time around was such a blessing to my entire family! This precious miracle from God is covering us and helps to bring some peace in all this. As I cried myself to sleep last night...the tears began for Zeke and the loss of him today...but then began to be pouring for my grandaddy and Grandpa Schomberg... Zeke is all I have ever known. When I met Carlyle...Zeke was part of the package. Watching my big sweet husband take his dog for "his last walk" and then come home and curl up next to him last night...was about more than I could handle... Not even really considering myself a "dog person" in the beginning...over the past 10 years...I guess he has become mine:) His presence will be really missed...I am sad. I know though...this is the right decision and even though it will be surrounded with lots of tears...he will be in heaven ( I believe...) with grandaddy and Grandpa Schomberg...sitting right by their sides...


To everything there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8